Things I want to look like I'm thinking about on the subway:
- Whether DFW is more beloved postmortem and if it's the influence of his deathly mystique
- The ultra-cool Bushwick parties I'm going to that night
- Kinky yet not weird sex things. Including possible bisexual liaisons
- "making money"; "being broke"
- My awesome, totally liberating, super progressive writing job
- Whether that cute boy with the babyface will smile at me
- Saying "fuck it all" and moving back to Baltimore
Things I'm actually thinking about:
- Whether there's anything in the fridge for dinner or if I should pick up some sad meal of sweet potatoes and/or an Annie's veggie lasagna
- Why I don't have more friends in this city, and why the ones I do have live two subway rides and certain awkward social protocols away
- Whether I have gotten any OkCupid messages from boys who can spell, are attractive, and don't have blatantly weird fetishes
- Guilt over how much shit my parents are actually paying for; how to pretend I'm paying rent by myself
- My decent, mostly unfulfulling, kind of vapid writing job
- Whether that cute boy with the babyface will smile at me
- Saying "fuck it all" and moving back to Baltimore
